I can’t describe what an amazing feeling it is to know that I am making my child. I’ve been dreaming of this time since I was old enough to understand it and it’s finally here. Today, I am 10 weeks and 3 days pregnant and I can honestly say there’s not a day that goes by that I’m not in complete AWE of the miracle that is happening inside of me. I am completely in love!
2 weeks after my first ultrasound, since we didn’t get a due date, we went back for another one. It was incredible. We heard our beautiful baby’s heart beating at 155 bpm and found out that he/she was a little over an inch long. At that time we were 7 weeks and 6 days pregnant and we were given the due date of January 24, 2014.
That brings me to my next update: my symptoms.
I have heard some serious horror stories about pregnancy and of course, prepared myself for the worst. On top of being extremely tired ALL THE TIME, right around 8 weeks I found myself pretty sick. I had 2 or 3 really bad days but other than that I was just uneasy. Sometimes I felt great and sometimes I felt like I couldn’t talk to anyone without throwing up. Smells were starting to get stronger but they weren’t necessarily the cause of my sickness….yet. As the days progressed, I really started to see there was something to this heightened smell thing. As you know, I work in a casino and the smoke? Don’t even get me started. I realize that smoke is not the greatest smell to begin with but once you can smell everything more than you ever wanted, it’s horrific. I’ve been moved tables a few times which was helpful but unfortunately I’ve had to leave work because I just couldn’t handle the smells that my job was throwing at me. I still have on and off days but overall, I think the worst is over…at least I hope it is!
I sound like I’m being totally negative about this pregnancy and I don’t mean to. I love love love being pregnant but I just wanted to make sure I shared with the people reading this and remind myself that it wasn’t all smiles. Every morning when I wake up, I remind myself that I am doing this for my little baby. Everything that’s thrown at me, I can handle because, as a woman, I was made strong to get through this situation (although sometimes, I feel God should have made me strong enough to not think about having a glass of wine at the end of my work week 😉).
As of right now, my baby has all of its organs. It has hair and nails and is the size of a lime and will be rapidly growing until the day of completion. Everyday I go over how I see that day unfolding in my head and sometimes, I find myself getting so emotional. I see my mom’s tears of happiness for her first grand baby from her only daughter, my stepdad seeing the grandchild he thought he would never have that will call him “grandpa”, my in-laws seeing their son becoming a father, and finally, my husbands face as he sees his child and realizes he’s a father for the first time. These thoughts cause tears of pure joy. I realize right now that my emotions are extreme and I cry at the drop of a hat but if you’re pregnant and happy like I am, you completely understand that there is nothing you want more than to meet that little angel. It’s such a blessing to know that I have been chosen to be a mom and I give God all the glory!
On a side note:
The app that has totally changed my life during this pregnancy is